I am afraid of "upstairs". To be more specific, I have a general fear that the upper storey of a building will collapse on me. It is the thought of the weight of all that heavy bedroom furniture , baths, showers, bedding clothing etc etc supported by what, to me, seems a flimsy structure of joists and boards.
When we decided to move house I was set on buying a bungalow as, in the back of my mind, I knew I would feel more comfortable without that potentially unsafe structure overhead.
Of course, we now live in an old property that has had an upper storey added by means of steel beams supported by the stone and rubble walls then boarded.
I have been able to suppress my fear so far but yesterday we went to the bathroom suppliers in town to order a replacement shower surround for the guest bathroom. We found what we needed and ordered it, to be delivered in a week or so. The salesman warned P that he may need help to get it upstairs as it would be very heavy.
This has been preying on my mind since then and I had trouble sleeping last night, thinking about that additional weight upstairs.
I understand that such irrational fears are usually a sign of underlying anxiety and I have always been an anxious person. My early family environment made me an anxious child and I don't seem to have grown out of it, although I have managed to live with it.
I think I need reassurance from someone who understands house construction methods and engineering!